what shall i do with this freakin life?

i've got many things in my mind now.haha.it's filling my poor brain.

okay, know what, im a bit obsessed with the future.i always think about what i really wanna do with my life that i even think that life's too short for me to accomplish all the things i wanna do.at one point, i said i wanna be a teacher, but that was when i was still an innocent kid so that's not counted anymore. then after i watched the fast and the furious tokyo drift, i wanna have my car or be a racer or whatever you pros call that. then when i watched mean girls, i wanted to be a film director.i thought it was so cool. but now, what i really wanna do is have my own band and be better than my favorite band. the idea might be ridiculous if you knew what my fave band is but that's what i really wanna do. the idea makes me feel so energized and it's so nice to think about you and your "band" doing the world tour, signing autographs, making music for yourself and others, seeing your fans, performing for people who really adores you and doing what you really want to do. i swear i could feel fire raging inside me whenever i sing in the shower. it's what i really want to do. ive made a lot of songs but no one has noticed it or no one's planning to give it life but me. i used to be in a band but things didn't work out properly because it's so impossible to balance my time so, we decided to, you know, not to play anymore. i don't wanna go back and remember that anymore but all i know is that i really, really, really, wanna make music for EVERYONE. i wanna make music that even the old ones appreciate. i wanna make an honest song and pour all my emotions, ideas and thoughts like what im doing now. i just wanna hear everyone singing the song i made. sing like there's no tomorrow. i wanna make things happen.not to just let it happen.